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15 November 2014 @ 01:40 am

Today is one of those 'meh' kind of day.

I've been in some sort of moodswings for the past few days to which I blame it on my period. #fthormones Interpersonal skills already reaching a new low as a result. So many things on my mind:

Dance. Like, yeah I get that I'm slower and more inflexible at times, and I have a lot to work on (and really blessed to have so many kind souls helping me out) but its still depressing to fail/see little success from my point of view. People told me that I had improved, but not to my desired extent. Yes I get that any improvement is still an improvement and I actually am trying to live by this 'dance to be better than yesterday' line but today is simply one of those melancholy kind of day where such small leaps in skills amount to almost nothing to me right now. Studies-wise, try as I might, I will at most be that (hopefully) painfully average kid. I can only fervently pray that I will not be those who help to cushion the bell curve. As for relationships, I'm still a blob of mess; as undesirable as ever and still still still regretting over lost opportunities.
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11 November 2014 @ 01:08 am

When someone’s been gone a long time, at first you save up all the things you want to tell them. You try to keep track of everything in your head. But it’s like trying to hold on to a fistful of sand: all the little bits slip out of your hands, and then you’re just clutching air and grit. That’s why you can’t save it all up like that. Because by the time you finally see each other, you’re catching up on the big things, because it’s too much bother to tell about the little things. But the little things are what make up life.

21 September 2014 @ 12:43 am

Hope the entry title isn't misleading as its about my cousin's joyous wedding rather than my personal life HAHA. Anyway, yesterday another cousin of mine tied the knot :') It was a beautiful wedding, despite some immature relatives of mine, who I simply could not comprehend their childish actions. One takeaway from this wedding is how we can bond more with our cousins, i.e. massive camwhoring at the entrance while waiting for the dinner to start and during the dinner itself when we got bored.

My pretty cousinnn :)))

A favourite photo of mine that night!! :)

My cousin and cousin-in-law entering by singing~
Aww at how my cousin-in-law is looking at her :')

Wishing the married couple a blissful marriage ahead!!:)

10 September 2014 @ 02:33 am
You are made
out of comets
and stars.

Do not surround
yourself with those
that treat you like
dirt and dust.

/ such a beautiful quote


Like a month or so. School's been real crazy this semester like ??!!!!!!? Just submitted two assignments on Monday and Tuesday (today) respectively (read: weekends spent on them assignments aka staring at the laptop screen throughout omg my eyes) and from now till next Monday, there's project meetings e v e r y d a y. (thank god this coming weekends are spared :'() And and recess week is starting next Saturday meaning we're approaching the midterms already holy shit time is passing too fast omg slow down!!! To think Real Estate is one of the slacker courses in NUS; well I can barely imagine how the rest have been managing their assignments etc. Apparently I wasn't spared during recess week either: Funk ODC Vol 1 (LOLOLOL aka Orientation Day Camp Vol 1 only nia HAHA), project meeting(s), CAC AGM (not much complaints cause in the east hehe), dance lesson, svfu funkcity (am i capable of joining it tho...???) and brianna's 21st (hope i can make ittt)... ok... so do i have time to study for midterms/finish up assignments/catch up on studies hmm I THINK NOT. But I hope I'll pull through this anyway.

On to happier things!!

feat. my judgy face and their :P faces LOL

So I finally met up w my h1 chem burdens after more than a year HAHAHA omg it's so hard to meet up with friends nowadays :( But it's really great to catch up with them over brunch at Habitat hehe (yay to another cafe checked!) Apparently there'll be a queue forming even before it opens omgwhut so we decided to meet at 10AM, yes 10 freaking early AM at Marymount but ya in the end tiah and I late HAHAHA but we made it to Habitat on time, at exactly 1030AM when it opens yay though there's a small queue alrdy when we got there but there's still seats for us!! Pretty lazy to elaborate anymore so yup we went to Somerset (our laodifang LOLLL :')) for some llaollao and to shop abit before calling it a dayyy~

i is judging the llaollao virgin ahahaha
01 August 2014 @ 02:40 pm
you realised how lonely you are when you wanted to confide in someone but there’s no one to turn to

Self-doubt is a terrible, terrible thing.

It’s times like this when you start to wonder whether you’re even good at anything. I’ve been trying, and trying but trying seems to get me nowhere. Is it because I’m too weak, or have I not been putting enough effort? Are some people born to always be at the weaker end of the spectrum and am I one of them? I keep trying to find something, anything that I could be good at: nothing. Some people say that talent is a pursued interest (i.e. anything I am willing to practice, I can do) But how do you continue on when you feel like you could never really achieve anything in life?

July’s been a pretty rough month for me emotionally.

Till next time.
25 July 2014 @ 02:20 am
I don’t dance to be the best.
I dance to be better than I were yesterday.

So I finally graduated from Shiki’s waacking course at School of The Elite Performers (STEP)!! I definitely didn’t regret joining it aha many thanks to Nic for influencing me to go!! Before joining the course, all I ever know of waacking is ‘sexy locking’, and that ‘girls should try waacking at least once’ #quotingnic But after joining it, it’s (obviously) not sexy locking; its a whole new genre of dance altogether. One thing I hadn’t expect would be me enjoying the course so much, especially the freestyling/battle on the last day. (But I’m still quite bad at the moves aha, blame it on my mind’s tendency to blank out (and hence forgetting every other twirl other than the basic ones :<)) But luckily my musicality’s not that bad I think HAHA it’s probably due to the prolonged exposure to funk music at sessions!! I was able to recognise a few familiar songs during the battles, and as a result, almost started popping instead omg HAHAHA. Nic said sometimes through the battle I would pause and about to pop then I realised that I’m in amidst of a waacking battle then changed back to waacking moves omg LOLOLOL. But this definitely won’t be the last time that I would be waacking!! I would be back at Shiki’s Open Classes every Friday night at STEP!! (Y) What I like about STEP, other than it being new and within short walking distance from Tai Seng MRT station, is that being a new studio in town, classes are small and people who come to learn are generally not the super good dancers (which can be quite intimidating to inexperienced/new dancers imo). So if anyone’s just starting out as a dancer (like me, I only started out almost a year ago), or wanting to try another genre of dance, STEP is another possible alternative!!:)

I might update this post with the showcase video when they upload it onto Youtube:)

Till next time~
10 July 2014 @ 12:45 am
It's July.

For me, June was spent either at work, dance or camps and I barely had a rest day. Work was often at night and that pretty much means I'll wake up late and hence half the day gone. Dance-wise, practices increase as the CAC camp drew near because we're performing for the finale night. I managed to not screw up for the actual performance (thank god, considering I screwed up a few dry runs the night before and yes, in the midst of CAC camp omg + I had only 3 hours of sleep the night before wa how did I survive...) :') As for camps, my first camp ended on a Saturday afternoon, while the second camp begins on Tuesday but I had to be in school by Monday night so I only had Sunday to myself. Not to forget that both Paulvin and I, the only two OGLs for the first camp, are sick but I'm glad we survived the camp and the freshies had fun aha. By the second camp I was well-rested enough and also there were more councillors to help out for each OG (I am one of them, basically councillor is like an OGL but lesser responsibilities :>) Okay enough of me going on and on... here's some pics!!

OG2 of SDE FOC!! Also known as Bravery or Hermione or Bikini OG or G2 aha
That's me looking pretty cui and sickly and... tanned :(

Dinner for day 1!! Pretty unexpected on my part hence a special feature here lolol!!
The coleslaw the nicest teehee but it had to be shared among 3 OGs/a house :(

Not much pics from the first camp cause it's pretty strict (as in the type of photos allowed to be taken) :(
Either way... moving on to the CAC Camp~

THORRR :> You can prolly guess who's the OGL HAHA
This was for the 5 mins intro for each House (mine's Avengers)!!

Na na na more pics LOLLL

One of the few (or maybe the only one :'() where everyone's present, freshies + councillors and OGL
Ft. househead qiting aha

Special shoutout to this pic cause I think we all looked super cute here LOL
If only the sky is brighter but OH WELLS

Mega shoutout to these two wonderful girls who helped me in the camp in different ways:
Isa for bringing me into the camp itself and being my constant in our House
Yx for bearing with my impromptu rants throughout the camp
Love y'all deep deep <3 <3

Last but not least... the lockers and poppers for CAC Finale Night!!
It was quite hard to get a full group pic cause there's always someone missing aha
Sad to say this is Amanda's last perf in SG before going back to Sweden :'(
I'll miss ya you crazy girl, sigh why do I only get to know you in Sem 2 :<
23 May 2014 @ 11:19 pm

So for the past two days I had my SDE FOC pre-camp, and I'm feeling pretty worn out that I'm kinda knocked out before 11pm oh gosh... #rlygettingoldaha Hope the actual camp will be fun!! There's still another pre-camp to go through, so all the best to me / I hope I'll survive this upcoming pre-camp cause it's gonna be an overnight thing/not day camp unlike SDE pre-camp T.T

But at least today was productive in the sense that I watched two great classic Disney movies teehee *\/* I don't know if it's just me but I'll often become an ardent supporter for the villain of movies HAHA. Especially when the villains have such sassy lines heh. Okay so first off my to-watch list is... The Lion King!! Given my love/fascination with lions it's not difficult to guess why right...? I can't believe I had never watch it nor read it before either. The movie was produced in 1994 but I'm pretty impressed with the animation, and that it's able to strike fear and sadness within me. Okay time to talk about my favourite character in this movie hehehe >:)


Scar is the main villain in TLK, with 3 main hyenas as his sidekicks. Omg his 'Be Prepared' song was so awesome it's easily my favourite song in the entire movie HAHAHA. He had some pretty classic lines too:


AND: "When it comes to brute strength…I’m afraid I’m at the shallow end of the gene pool." While googling, I found out that Loki said the exact line to Thor omg coooooooooool #scartheoriginator (Y)

Next would be Hercules!! Unlike TLK, I actually read Hercules before, in a book meant for kids, i.e. picture books with minimal words and that was many years ago, so all I could recall are Hades, Meg and Hercules. (IN WHICH HADES IS MY FAV OF COURSE) Hades is tooooooooooooo sassy for words omg gif spam coming up hehe. The movie also portrayed the muses (main narrator of the movie) which wasn't in the book if I recalled accurately. I was actually a teeny bit annoyed by Hercules (partly cause he's against Hades LOL but also cause he's kinda arrogant and all) but I quite like Megara cause she's unlike Snow White, Cinderella, not like the princessy kind of female lead, and I can say that she's more independent.

^^^ My favourite line from Meg, preach it gurlll

Let's talk about Hades now omg he's too comical HAHAHA. It's wasn't intended for Hades to be THIS sassy/comical/funny. Its after the (long) casting of Hades did they rewrote him as a comic-relief villain. Here's a few spam of classic lines by Hadeyyy (L)

And that's all to my (poorly-attempted) movie reviews aha. I'll be catching up on more movies, probably more classic Disney movies because I realised I've only read most classic Disney stories rather than watch.

Till next time!!

19 May 2014 @ 01:04 am


I took this personality test a while back and found the results pretty interesting so I thought I might just share it here:

(those in bold are what I agree with // most points are what others think of me hence unbold // do take this with a pinch of salt tho)

Spontaneous Idealists are creative, lively and open-minded persons. They are humorous and dispose of a contagious zest for life. Their enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along. They enjoy being together with other people and often have an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential.

Spontaneous Idealists are masters of communication and very amusing and gifted entertainers. Fun and variety are guaranteed when they are around. However, they are sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to their direct and sometimes critical nature.

This personality type is a keen and alert observer; they miss nothing which is going on around them. In extreme cases, they tend to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and are inwardly always ready to jump. Life for them is an exciting drama full of emotionality. However, they quickly become bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. Their creativity, their imaginativeness and their originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - they then leave the meticulous implementation of the whole to others (quite guilty of this HAHAHA). On the whole, Spontaneous Idealists attach great value to their inner and outward independence and do not like accepting a subordinate role. They therefore have problems with hierarchies and authorities.

If you have a Spontaneous Idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with them, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, they are warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If Spontaneous Idealists have just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and their new partners are showered with attention and affection (well... gotta wait and see for this). This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination. But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for them once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for them so that many Spontaneous Idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep their curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, Spontaneous Idealists can be inspiring and loving partners.


Okay so I redid the test and I gotten the same result so alright, I guess I'm a Spontaneous Idealist to a certain extent (say 6.5 out of 10?) because I doubt I am that humorous and amusing and enthusiastic and entertaining (lol yeah self-esteem issues but hey at least I'm self-aware too guysss) I feel that being around different people brings out different sides of me, like yeah I can be amusing when I'm with certain people; and more introverted with others. Oh and not to forget that I'm socially awkward most of the time so... master of communication? Nah. As for having me as a friend... I don't know if people are ever bored with me around (I sincerely hope not :/). Relationship wise, I can't be sure but I can be certain that a boring and dull relationship isn't for me. Okay truth to be told, it isn't for most people too but some people can just live with it but I doubt I'm capable of that hmm...

a snippet of my favouriteeeeeee show #thefinaledidNOThappen
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